Sunday, February 26, 2006
so my busy week over liao... but the next few weeks gonna be as busy. shag man. suddenly have ACCT (advanced close combat training for you ns noobs) 4 times a week!! scali get injured or whatever... (choi choi choi) then my driving how. sians wanna pia somemore... really really itching to drive my own car liao heh. and now we're supposed to be doing a lot of guard this month cos 23SA is going to india for exercise... jiu ming ah. tt means might have to do like one guard a week. zzzzzzzzz. actualli i dont really care... as long as i have enough time to go for driving 4-5 times a week haha. but stupid ssdc is fully booked now, and i only have one puny lesson scheduled for this week so far... i hope slots open up on wednesday and saturday!!
meanwhile... had a pretty eventful weekend! haha caught 'the constant gardener' with aims on friday night.. was quite a good movie! quite sad though, and really meaningful. its the kind of movie that makes u think a lot. i like. good news came too, when i found out that my name had been cut from the list of people doing crowd control for the state funeral (wooo freed up my saturday). and let me take 2 driving lessons! damn fun lah driving. met brandon there after my second lesson... then went to his house to play some winning eleven and chill out heh. went to town after tt to do some shopping... managed to get a bday gift for my mom too! who will be erh... 40-something this saturday haha. happy birthday in advance mom!
speaking of birthdays! haha almost forgot...
to my closest *insert bimbotic voice* gurrllfriend,
happy 20th birthday aimee!
haha now you can... hmm. what can u do when your'e 20? you act act like your'e still 18! even though u look 2... *halo* lol. anyways hope u have a great birthday =)
meanwhile... chinese music rocks my socks! haha especially the local babes. just got 龔詩嘉 and 潘嘉麗.. shiok mans *big grin* oh yah and just read in eight days that rui en got F9 for her o'level chiense.. ah ha ha. there' still hope =)
time to get ready to book in. and back to refreshing my ssdc booking page heh.
or so it seems, at 8:57 PM
Sunday, February 19, 2006
too much has been going on, but then it feels like too litle is happening.
it feels like im in a transitional stage again, trying to pinpoint my identity. a 'now i'm 20 oh f*ck' identity crisis, if you will. its at a time like this that i'm actually glad for army, that there's someplace else for me to be than home and out in 'the real world'. staying in camp is like an escape from everything else, its an escape into a world where i can just let loose and not give a damn about anything other than what needs to be done in camp, and my driving at night. i guess sometimes i just want to be alone. not alone alone, but away from all the hassles of organising supper/movie outings, of jio-ing ppl out; of going places and meeting people. i just wish to be free. be free from all this 'social' stuff. be free from having to worry about what im going to be doing. be free from the strain of friendships i try to maintain.
just a brief update on life... been going for driving lessons almost three to four times a week now... i cant wait to drive. i just love the feeling of being in the driving seat, one hand on the gear, one hand on the steering wheel, left foot on the clutch, right foot on the accelerator/brake... but most of all its the way you lose yourself in the moment, where everything is just in the background and you focus on the road, the cars, the people. your own car. you are in complete control of where you want to go, how you get there, how fast you move. its just pure bliss.
apart from my driving heaven (heh).. went to fun-o-rama on sat. 2 years on and ac's still going strong (i love the feeling of being an alumni).. was just great to see familiar faces, new faces, juniors seniors. bought myself 2 shirts and a nice set of keychains too.. =)
lastly... it struck me that i no longer have any idea of where God is in my life. its easy to say that He's carrying me at this point.. but from my perspective, i cant see Him. im lost... but at the same time im not really trying to find myself either. strangely... it doesnt feel weird or awkward. and at this point... i dont really know what to do. and i doubt that any advice will help either so... dont bother? no matter how you put it... it just feels like something i have to deal with myself.
我一路向北 离开有你的季节
方向盘周围 回转着我的后悔
我加速超越 却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲
。 。 。
停止狼狈 就让错纯粹
or so it seems, at 8:39 PM
Sunday, February 12, 2006
haha kinda similar to an earlier 'five of blahblah' thingy i've done... but oh well.
for ashley, in particular =p
Name five of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick five people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not use things that someone else has already used:
1. that feeling of sheer.. tranquility the moment you fall asleep. its at that exact moment that everything leaves you, all your troubles and worries, all your pain and sorrow. its when u start to float away into... well. 'lala land' haha. =) i love my sleep.
2. thinking. haha what i mean is like to really sit down and ponder. be it in discussions about philosophy or what not, or even simple stuff like 'how does this work'. i like the thrill of coming to a conclusion, and the content u feel when you've learnt something new and fascinating.
3. i love my music. can't live without it. 'nuff said. can't leave my house without my shuffle/walkman
4. those friday nights at holland village suppering, enjoying a cup of tea at essential brews. but most of all the company.
5. and hmm. be it day or night, just looking at the sky sets my free from all my worries. nothing beats looking at the noon sun beaming through fluffy white clouds, nothing beats a lovely full moon and the yellow stars at night. i even love it when the sky is grey and pouring rain. i love my sky!
so yeah... supposed to choose 5 people to do this. but thats so lousy, so i want everyone to do it =p
and yup. its book in time! get to book out tmrw though, battalion off on v'day haha. and KUSHINBO TMRW! muahaha i love my sushi buffet.
or so it seems, at 8:49 PM
Sunday, February 05, 2006
hmm its time to book in already.. but hopefully this week will be the last week i'll ever be outfield again for an exercise =) cny was good... will have more to post about that when i get back home next friday. wish it could last longer, im starting to get into the feel of it for the first time heh. to think i used to hate new years! oh well. next week will be a new beginning... the -getting ready to ord- phase hahaha.
till then... jya ne!
or so it seems, at 10:16 PM
